the last thing I wanted 

He was always saying how his mother said 'What a man wants is a mate and what a woman wants is infinite secruity,' and 'What a man is is an arrow into the future and what a woman is is the place the arrow shoots off from,' until it made my tired.

(...) 

The last thing I wanted was infinte security and to be the place an arrow shoots off from. I wanted change and excitement and to shoot off in all directions myself. 

- The Bell Jar, Sylvia Plath (1963)